I need to purge....I need to rip this heaviness off of me ......I need to write and pour this shit out of me....or if I don't , I feel it will consume me and there will be no more of me left.... which I feel is taking place....I feel it in my bones.... my skin.....my heart....and always my brain.
They say, everyone has a chapter they don't read out loud. ..yeah, that's the fucken truth..... the one that rips the fucken breath right out of your chest.... the one that plays over and over and takes your will....your appetite .......
Since this is the elephant on my chest....and once again I feel it's life or death..... I'm in survival mode....to breathe again...... I've decided, that's the one I'm starting with..... this in my Prologue to chapter one......the beginning of my story. ......the story of a girl I once was....free in spirit and wild in my thirst for life.... a story of going to the brink.....fighting for my life.....and in what I thought, I survived. ....but am still surviving.
Dedicated to the ' Fairy with broken wings '
Prologue ~ Evolution of Filth #prologue#writing#writersofinstagram#writers#purge#mystory#survival#fairywithbrokenwings#freeinspirit#wild#life#evolution#surviving#domesticviolencesurvivor#untilithappenstoyou#ptsd#nightmares#flashbacks#damages
Imagine that one of the deadliest genocides in history is taking place right now.
Imagine your daughter being raped and killed before your eyes. .
Imagine families all being burned alive. .
Imagine kids being sent to die before firing squads. .
But it's okay. None of it is happening. Life is okay. #UntilItHappensToYous
Rape culture is something that is real. The affect of rape are beyond anything you can compare. As a survivor I've learned to love myself. At a point in my life I started to believe it was my fault. I hated what I saw in the mirror, despised every part of my beautiful self. "Maybe if I hadn't worn that outfit this wouldn't have happened" "I'm nothing but trash and I'm unworthy of love".... these thoughts were a constant thing in my head until I was 19. Rape isn't a joke. It causes so much hurt and pain. Until this day I have insecurities that lurk in the dark in the back of my head. I don't deserve nor does anyone deserve to have this happen to them. Doesn't matter what you wear, what you are, where you come from, the money in your pocket, the dreams you have in your head. You deserve love and support. I'm here for you. I understand. We are strong people! It doesn't matter whether you're man or female. Stand strong. Show the world who we're meant to be before your light was tested. You'll shine brighter than ever. I'm strong and will never let myself or anyone think the thoughts I've thought every day.... #rapeculture#rapevictim#survivor#itsokay#untilithappenstoyou#support#love#loveyourself#selfesteem#selflove#selflove#inspirations